Awakening of the Old Man

On this journey the persistence of the sins of my pass is in consistent pursuit to resurrect the old man and with its distinct call only the old man would recognize.
As sin crows@daybreak, it serenades me@sunset, with whispers of desperation in my eargates@midnight which follows with visual suggestions in the subconscious.
As my conscious lay suspended through the night for a few hours, while tossing and turning the visual in my subconscious seems like I'm living my reality, but from that false reality I’m awaken realizing that sin tried to create for me my own wonderland (fantasy).
Sins desire for me is to be entangled within servitude; to rekindle & resurrect that old man which was crucified & laid to rest; even though the enactment was false it can still be felt in my reality.
Now fully awake, alert & struggling mentally with those twisted suggestions that was presented to me during my most vulnerable hours of my life, I'm in resistance against the overcast of emotions of guilt, shame and fears.
I realize there was a reason for sin abrupt presentation. Sin had assistance. Sin was the arrow, but our enemy played cupid.
The sin was infatuation rooted in lust but camouflage itself as love.Lust is not only defined as sexual intercourse or actions, but a passionate, excessive desire or craving of anything.
©Keys2Life
Ephesians 4:19-23 NLT
They have no sense of shame. They live for lustful pleasure and eagerly practice every kind of impurity. But that isn’t what you learned about Christ. Since you have heard about Jesus and have learned the truth that comes from him, throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life, which is corrupted by lust and deception. Instead, let the Spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes.